Chthonic Engine Noise

Rio Grand Gorge

Horizon line from hell

“Look, over there!” she said.

I stared across the Rio Pueblo gorge until I spotted them, half a dozen somethings that weren’t rocks or trees, and then it clicked. “Bighorn sheep! See their white butts?” And so they were. It was like watching giraffes from a helicopter flying low across the veldt. What is this place with almost no one here? The cliffs so high, the rocks so old…

The other day my wife was napping on the love seat covered by a blanket. The sky grew dark, the wind picked up, and then the yard exploded. Half a rotted railroad tie that lined the “flower beds” blew fifteen feet away. There was crazy blowing dust and horizontal sand. All three outside chairs in front got tumbled in the dirt, while their cushions blew off into the sagebrush. Large dead branches rained down from two ancient elms. The electricity went on and off at least a dozen times in thirty seconds, and then everything went dead, leaving us without power for the next five hours. To advance the hands and reset the old G.E. mantel clock’s Westminster chimes, I had to listen to them cycle twenty times.

Original Inhabitants

pronghorns outside Cimarron, NM

Shot beside the Santa Fe Trail

We saw these pronghorns just beside the road a few miles outside of Cimarron a couple of weeks ago. Sometimes I think about the life force that produces living, breathing creatures like this out of oxygen and dirt. They don’t look worried. Why did I wake up at 3:00 a.m.?

Gorge Porn Cultural History Tour

Slide Trail, Taos Valley Overlook

Onward to the rim!

It’s called the Slide Trail, and it’s not for you if you can’t fly. See the big notch in the shadowed cliff face at the far left? That’s where we’re heading in this shot, seven hundred feet above the Rio Pueblo.

The trail is actually old county road 570—yes, you’re looking at a road—that used to go from the south end of Taos to the Taos Junction Bridge, just below where the Rio Pueblo flows into the Rio Grande. As I’ve mentioned here before, a major rockslide blocked the lower end in ’93. The state decided it was too dangerous to clear and closed the road for good. Judging from the boulders that have fallen since and what it feels like when you walk it, that was very wise. There’s a short piece still open at the bottom that leads up to a trailhead. When you come back, you can turn left at the bottom and follow the river to Pilar or cross the bridge and climb a fearsome set of gravel switchbacks on the way to various points west, including the imaginary town of Carson and another Taos junction at U.S. 285, an amazing two-lane highway that runs 846 miles from the Colorado state line to Española, Santa Fe, Roswell, Artesia, Carlsbad, and into deep West Texas, ending at the town of Sanderson, where you must never go.

In the old days I was glad to see it. There was a “thank God it’s open” gas station there on U.S. 90 where I used to stop on trips from Austin to Big Bend. Then again, the place I’m thinking of might be not be Sanderson. Don’t go there anyway, but I can see the station—a station, some station, the archetypal station—in my mind’s eye now just as I saw it rolling into town: dusty and rusty even then, the only thing lit up at night. (Zoom out at that link, I might mean Dryden.) But it was definitely Sanderson, at a late-night cafe on the western edge of town, where the state cops tried to mess us up one night in ’65. There’s not that much to tell, except the tenor of the times.

I was taking three friends out to Big Bend over spring break in my ’58 VW. We were driving through the night from Austin to make it to our campsite so we’d wake up in the park with three whole hours sleep if we were lucky. Fine young men, hi-ho. This was before things got outrageous in the culture. None of us had real long hair and only the art major had any dope—they always did before the rest—but all of us were weird and scruffy. The Volkswagen, too. In far West Texas then, it screamed goddamn hippie anti-war protestor or at least implied an openness to change, so basically the same. At any rate, we pulled into this place in Sanderson, hesitating for a moment when we saw the highway patrol cars in the parking lot because we knew, you know, you just did then, but in we went because what if they’d already seen us? The tableful of troopers watched us while we had a nervous meal and tried not to look back. When we were finished, I was last to pay and saw the state cops laugh, then two of them got up and started walking to the door.

They sat in their car with the motor running until I pulled out and off into the night, but I saw the headlights coming in my rearview mirror. I drove along at just under the speed limit. The cops roared up so fast and close, I thought they were going to ram us off the road. They stayed there with their high beams on (no flashers), hanging on my bumper, for a damn eternity, several miles at least while we waited for the end, until they dropped back hard to pull a U-turn and go home. Way to scare those college boys from godless Austin, yet I automatically survived.

Come a Ki Yi Yippee Yippee Yay

old West

I’m moving in here

Now see, back then they didn’t need to call them man caves. (I hate that term, even though I’ve turned everywhere I’ve ever lived into exactly that.) No, they just had all kinds of manly things and had to put them somewhere. Dozens of rifles behind that door, for example, just in case, I guess. The windows in this room have laced buckskin drapes, by the way.

I don’t think I’ll tell anybody where this is just yet. Feeling kind of frisky.

UPDATE, 7-16-2017: The “New Mexico Room” at the Villa Philmonte at Philmont Scout Camp near Cimarron, NM. There. Now you know!

New Mexico Oh My

bull near Cimarron, NM

New Mexico bull outside of Cimarron

What an incredible Tuesday. Pronghorns, elk, deer, wild burros, a ninety-year-old 28,000 square-foot villa, and lunch at a picnic table under tall cottonwoods in a sea of dark green grass. There was a thirty degree temperature drop coming back from Cimarron over the mountains into Taos in the rain.

I’d planned this trip for a long time. Besides wanting to visit the mansion Waite Phillips built and gave away, I love the relative purity of the landscape, the peace of wide open spaces, the wildlife, and the sky. Taos without Taos, in a way, only greener. We drove for miles on almost empty two-lane roads in perfect ease. One of them follows the original Santa Fe Trail, over hills and grasslands that show little sign of all that’s passed since teams of oxen pulled the traders’ heavy wagons from St. Louis. The connection always staggers me. This time I heard the creaking of the wagons and the grunting of the beasts. Where the highway turned and dropped down to Rayado Creek, I felt the wagon masters letting go.

We needed this, at any rate.

It’s been rough this year in Taos. We haven’t known if we would even stay. I still don’t, for that matter, but most regrets and guilt are gone. If after eighteen years I count real friends only on the fingers of one hand, that’s mostly down to me. People surface and disappear again so often here, unlike the little college town we came from. But driving out to Cimarron (and Philmont Scout Ranch) was a kind of affirmation. It also made me wonder why I’ve always found so much to criticize, no matter where I am, and then it came to me (again)…

Thank you to New Mexico for being so damn beautiful and vital to my spiritual health that I haven’t thrown it all away for no good reason. Thank you Jesus for the nails.

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